i could kill you now
rip your heart out through your ass
and feed it to you slowly
ever wonder what fresh flesh tastes like
the feel of it slithering down your throat
like jell-o only not as tasty
choke on your own slime
i don't want to do it anymore
i'm more than a plaything
and now i'm going to show you what pain is
you'll wish i had killed you by the time i'm done
i can skin you alive
show you your own outer covering
tie your dick in a knot you'll never undo
maybe some bamboo shoots under your toenails
i want you to know how i feel
i hate you for how you treat me
all i wanted was to be with someone
i'm going to cut your lying tongue out
then i won't have to listen to your bullshit
string you up by your balls
with piano wire
killing is too good for you
get on your knees
and beg for forgiveness
not that i will give it to you
i just want to see you puling and whining before me
then you will know how i feel
i'm tired of being the stupid one
you can't use me for your psycho head games anymore
now it's my turn
when the blood begins to flow
i'll lift my head and laugh, laugh, laugh
i can find someone better
i can be someone new
you're worse than slime
you're male
and now it begins
to the pain

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I want a dagger. A bright, shiny, sharp little dagger. I only need about four or five inches
blade. That would make me happy! Then, if anyone started to fuck with me, all I would have
 to do is stick it in them, and they'll leave me alone.
I want a tazer. A strong, black, painful, little tazer. I only need about a hundred thousand volts.
that way, if anyone tried to fuck with me, all I have to do is push the button and they are 
toast.
I want an Uzi. A big, automatic, machine-fire, little Uzi. With that, if anyone wanted to fuck 
with me,I could just pull the trigger and blow them apart.

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i said no


he parked the car
turned to me
fondled my knee
i said please don't
he pulled me closer
forced his tongue down my throat
i said stop
his hand moved higher
grabbed my crotch
unbuttoned my jeans
i said no
he lifted my shirt
squeezed my nipple
pulled down my pants
i said no
he thrust my face into his groin
shoved his dick into my mouth
pushing harder and harder
i said no
pushed me back
spread my legs
forced his way inside
i said no
fucked me like i wanted it'
in and out and in and out
(of course no condom)
i said no
grabbed my hair
forced me to suck once more
i was too afraid to fight
i said no
he fucked me again
thrusting ever so hard
hurt me deep inside
i said no
i said no
I SAID NO!!!!

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crying 
screaming silent obscenities 
forcing you to look 
and see 
what is really me 
although you are blind 
and only the tears show 
reflecting shadows of the past 
dripping dreams down into the sewer 
of memory 
bleeding death of all i love 
all i know 
all i want 
and you don't care 
or want to believe 
in what is me 
yet still i try 
to drag you into my soul 
to give a glimpse of me 
through the tears 
slowly dripping 
dripping down 
slipping down 
into infinity 
an infinity of dream 
dreams that are gone 
forever 
never won 
never known 
only gone 
the way of my heart 
and you won't see 
you won't listen 
because it shouldn't matter to you 
it doesn't 
although i still try 
to set your mind free 
to be a part of mine 
to see 
to feel 
to know 
to hear 
and no one ever listens to me anyway