06/20/01

well, sorry, it's been rough lately cuz i just moved..it took a week to come up with a local access number to get on the internet, plus two weeks to find my keyboard anyway, so shit. kinda stressed cuz i've been in town for almost three weeks and i haven't found a job yet...small towns suck. so if anyone out there lives in the area and knows where i could find a decent, non-fast-food job, please email me and let me know....but i guess it's ok here. i have no drugs, no friends, no money and no job, but i have the internet, a playstation, and lots of, um, oranges and cows? i don't like cows though and i wouldn't know a shrrom from a poisonous toadstool if my life depended on it, which i guess it would if i wanted to go shrooming, huh. plus i refuse to put my hands in shit. but that's just my personal problem, i guess. so what does one do in a small town with no friends, you ask. not a damn thing so far. i guess soon as i get a job i will begin to meet people and go do stuff, but i think tampa or orlando is my best bet for actual fun. cow tipping isn't my thing either. sorry i'm being facetious again. but i guess y'all are used to it by now, huh. if you aren't, go back and read the other months first, okay? then you won't be surprised if i get all crazy or something. ok so my ex-boyfriend called me about two weeks before i moved to tell me he broke up with his new woman and to see if i wanted to go out and do something. i was like, what the fuck? he didn't even have the balls to break up with me and he thinks i'll be happy to see him? i think he's crazy. (and if you're reading this, steve, you deserve to be humiliated in front of millions...er hundreds of strangers!!) i just don't understand men. why did he think i wanted to hear from him? besides the fact that he owed me money, of course. but i guess not all men can be as smart as me *evil grin* oh god did i really just do that...AAAAHHHHH the aol-ites have infected me with their obnoxious emoticons!!!!!! it's horrible!!! (if there are any aol users here please disregard any rude things i may say about aohell, steve case, or any related subjects) weird..i haven't even been in a chat room in years...scary. and i'm so BORED! i hate my games and my tv and even gasp a lot of times my computer...and taking walks gets kinda old.
i want a new life....
and my creativity level is at nil so no new material is forthcoming..except possibly some pics, after i play some more. i must say the rain here is beautiful...the sky gets all pinkish-purple and the clouds are black and evil-looking, and then it pours like it's the end of the world. the lakes here are kinda pretty too...i just wish i'd met some freaks or somebody interesting. although there are some really cute guys here. al that fresh air and sunshine i guess.

but i think that's enough for now...hopefully soon i will feel like writing and i can share with everyone. so i'm gonna get off the internet and go to sleep so i can find a job tomorrow...well a girl can hope can't she?!?!?

triana