december 29 2000
so many dreams lately i can't remember them all. they all blend into each other. images mixed. a dark man, east indian but young, velvet coat. dark. moonlit beach beneath a huge mansion. he waits in a cave and offers me his hand. i think he is someone else and i say something to him. he looks at me curious and i realize he's not who i think. i look around. i'm about to step into the cave, wake. before this: fleeting images, forgotten too quickly. i think i'm awake, telling someone something. in my bathroom, talking to friend jeff. flirting. he's kissing and groping me. not quite my bathroom. i give him a kiss and move into the hallway. he's still trying to touch me but i don't want boyfriend to see. some other people in my apartment.
