When life throws a curve

and I'm unsure of what to do I get lost in the masses of whirling, swirling thoughts. Despite my efforts, negativity set in and takes it's toll, making me forget which way is right to turn. So I wander aimlessly in the quickly approaching darkness looking for a familliar face, a sense of direction, a solid ground. The hopelessness and lonliness weigh me down, a constant weight on my shoulder and I crumble like a small child. I cannot stop the tears that dampen my cheeks and blur my vision I see nothing and the world is closing in. There is nothing left to be done I am lost in the masses. I am lost within myself. Holding To The Stars Shadows dance In and out of my conciousness As the clock ticks on And out time together Draws quickly to an end I look to the stars To chase away the shadows That haunts my inner-most emotions But the stars are dying, dimming, fading I reach for you to light my darkness And first you touch me Hold me tight But the shadows have reached you too For you turn away And pretend you didn't notice the Love and Desire in my eyes And that you didn't feel the same The clock ticks on And out time is running out The shadows overcome us both Until darkness reigns And our path is out of sight Where to go from here Neither of us is sure But time is precious And I hold to the stars To lead us through Shadows dance In and out of my conciousness As the clock ticks on And out time together Draws quickly to an end I look to the stars To chase away the shadows That haunts my inner-most emotions But the stars are dying, dimming, fading I reach for you to light my darkness And first you touch me Hold me tight But the shadows have reached you too For you turn away And pretend you didn't notice the Love and Desire in my eyes And that you didn't feel the same The clock ticks on And out time is running out The shadows overcome us both Until darkness reigns And our path is out of sight Where to go from here Neither of us is sure But time is precious And I hold to the stars To lead us through

An apparition My imagination All the things I once took as truths All Disappear before my eyes Lies, lies, lies Everything I thought was real All the things I thought he'd feel The little world I made myself When all the cards were on the shelf It's not reality, I know But I don't know where else to go So I continue to pretend That he really is my friend I can't accept that it should end Sorry, World. I cannot leave. I must continue to believe...

Father Figure Daddy, don't wory. I'm not your little girl. I never was an I probably never will be. You act all concerned now But you never did before, or never let it show. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT to tell me what is right and what is wrong. You and your drugs and beer and cigarettes... Hypocrit Ruining your life and the lives of those around you. You were never there. I don't care. I don't hate you, but I don't love you either. You're just a man I know You say you love me and maybe you do (I am your flesh and blood) but you rarely call or write or visit. Days and weeks and months go by without any contact (I sometimes wonder if you're still alive) YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME! You don't know the facts. So why should I care if you don't approve of the way I live MY life? I don't. And that's just the way it is. Don't worry, Daddy You're not loosing anything. I never was your little girl. I can say that I don't love you I can say that I don't care. But every time you touch another My heart bleeds with pure dispair. You may not know the situation. I tried to tell you how I feel. Now I plead in desperation. Tell me, please, if you're for real! Sometimes you'll be with me. Sometimes you won't. Sometimes I understand. Most times I don't. I grasp on to noghings in times when it's rough. The thought that you might care at all is enough. You can make me feel special Or make me feel sad. Could it be that I'm just one more girl that you've had? Maybe I'll never know... But tell me now if you don't love me. Tell me now if you don't care. I'll withdrawl into my own mind, and my heart I will repair.

Like a flower opening it's petals to the morning sun You opened my eyes And showed me the light as a bear wakes from his long winter's slumber You have awakened my heart And shown me love so true That it really can move mountains And conquer all Mere words can't express The way I feel when we're together But when you take me in your arms I know you know. it's just right. Meant to be. I tremble at the incredible energy That runs between us. You have a certain magnificance That I can't quite grasp. Your sparkling eyes. Your childish smile. Your comforting embrace. Your beautiful body. What have I done to desearve such perfection? It almost frightens me Yet I could never be scared All I can give you is all that I have My heart Simple and pure Love unconditional Undying Forever Until the end of time And isn't that what really counts?

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